It takes a little more than you

Time moves quickly in a nanosecond without, in a blink of an eye you are catapulted at the normality you was once yearned for. And in the next blink you would be where you formerly were. In its elegance,time moves delicately amidst my palette of qualms and picks up its pace in my most dire moments much to my delight. The greeneries,the constant rains,frequenting the library and indulging in my usual marmalade treats abudantly has grown on you. These faces have now rendered a hint of familiarity, and rooms awash with strangers fail to rattle you now. In an avid pursuit pillared by skepticism,indecisions, and naivety you engage in correspondence. Bartering chary glances for slow spreading simpers, trading anecdotes and eventually, exchanging skeletons in the closets, an innocuous endeavour  in building camaraderies. Enthralled and fueled in raw anticipation it is only normal to reciprocate with the kindest intention, being purely platonic. Only to be met with confusion,and agony and a puerile loathing all in the name of infatuation. I can't begin to express how the whole predicament is frivolous to begin with,but then i mentally attempted to trade places in a half hearted attempt to piece where the vexation and antipathy stems from and then only then it made perfect sense.

You are only human.

And its okay, you're only human and so am i, and the rest of us and we are allowed to get angry upon not being able to have what we want. Sometimes.