Cause ive got issues

Theres always that repetitive effort that’s been done way too many times till it has grown stale. A lengthy correspondence ensues, acknowledging all your regrets and misdeeds, all the pleadings, the justifications and the likes. Here I am, time and again, in the the very same predicament I’ve been in way too many times, putting the very same ballad again on repeat, playing the very same scene in my mind over again,hearing words you said reverberate through my head like a broken record. You give me air just enough till I asphyxiate and I’d forget how to respire. It already sounds like a bad plot of a coming of age romcom where I am yet again reprising my role as the protagonist navigating her way through life with the trials and tribulations of every girls modern day woes. Cringe worthy so cringe worthy. It dawned on me that im only human, embellished with a wide array of emotions to select from. (lucky!) This week’s resurgence of immense melancholy jolted me into rationality from my delirium, sorta I guess. No one walks out of such things unscathed and unscalded. I am dripping with agony, a façade I can never maintain gracefully. One can only break into a simper for so long, after that its just teeth. I guess, complacency kills and the epilogue to my modern day fable isn’t you. Who is my endgame? And the quest continues